I enjoy the lap of luxury as much as the next guy. Which is maybe why the rug gets pulled out from under me once in a while. God knows, I would be complacent in my artistic endeavours. Here I am once again, forced to use my own discipline to find work and sustain myself. Each time this happens, I fall way short of expectations, but nevertheless find the light at the end of the tunnel. What I need to fight is this wonderful freedom ("but oh that magic feeling, nowhere to go"). Freedom from responsibilities, my life becomes a large doodle. If it was up to me it wouldn't be up to me. I would sleep in everyday and goof around with my music or video projects all day, save for playing with the cat, seeing a movie, or going on a bike ride.
Yes, I am Having Fun Yet
Previous terms of unemployment lasted several months. The first time, I filled in the days by travelling and taking some extra computer programming classes.
The second time, I did some travelling and produced my own TV show. The first 3 weeks of this latest term has been taken up by travelling and music appreciation. I have fallen into the musical equivalent of internet surfing. I spend hours surfing through my humongous iTunes collection, making specialised playlists, listening to newly acquired remixes and b-sides. Why? Because I have given myself the idea that I have the ability to coast along and make ends meet. Somehow it'll all work out. Why worry? I'm sure most people could not tolerate this attitude. Of course, it makes a big difference if you don't have a family to support. I have designed a lifestyle where I can live cheaply and pursue my art. I also know that there is guilty conscience that wakes me up in the morning, forcing me to face reality, albeit kicking and screaming.
I'm not a Recluse, I'm Just Eccentric
The other philosophy goes that things come in waves, where it's feast or famine. There are periods where I am working jobs both day and night, and I am constantly running around. Then there are periods like now, where work is sparse, and you can spend time recharging your batteries. I am not dumb enough to just sit on my laurels and assume that the phone will ring with an offer for a TV series gig. But as you see, the first order of today was to waste time writing for my blog. Doing great so far.
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